MARCH 2003

  Wednesday March 5, 2003 @1:37

Well I am sure that this is going to be a real surprise.   I haven't posted anything on this page in over a year, but I finally realized that doing this benefited a lot of people.  It benefits me because I am able to get a lot of things off my chest that bother me. It helps people who know me because they can read these posts at their own leisure and I won't bug as many people about what my problems or what my feelings are.  It works out for everyone.  So far this year has been shit.  The last few months haven't really been that good for me in all areas.  I don't know where to start... but I guess I should start with work.  The place I work at got sold.  No one knew about it till the last minute and I feel it was really sneaky how the whole thing went down.  So of course I was worried about my job security.  So far things are smooth there, except for the fact that I am now working 8 hours less a week, because it's slow.  The nice thing about the new boss is that he seems to take an interest in the business, unlike the old one.  The thing that bugs me about the new boss is the fact that he seems sleazy.  He keeps telling us about his love life, and how many girlfriends he has and blah blah blah.  I really don't care or want to hear about it, but when he talks about it he cracks these horrible jokes, which of course I laugh at, because if I don't, I just may have to look for another job.  So things at work are uneasy and unsettled and everyone is stressed there.  So that covers what has happened at work lately.  Now let's get into the relationship part.  Back in October I got an ICQ message from this guy on XY who saw my ad.  The reason why he messaged me was the fact he recognized me from a streetcar charter that I was on.  We went out on a few dates and things were going well.  Then we slowly started drifting apart.  I don't know what really happened but eventually we were hardly seeing each other.  He then talked to me and said that it's his fault.  He does not know what he really wants.  I told him I somewhat felt the same.  Part of me wanted a relationship and wanted everything to work and be happy happy, but another part of me knew that I was not even ready for a relationship and I was jumping into things way too fast.  So we both agreed to break up and become friends.  We talk from time to time now, but because we are both really busy, we haven't really had the time to even meet up.  One of the big things I miss about being with him was the fact that I was getting out a lot and I was actually getting some sort of a life finally, plus it really felt good to have someone in my life.  I will probably talk about this more later or when I have the time.   So now of course I move on to my parents.  I think that my parents and I will never agree on certain issues.  We both are stubborn and will never change our opinions.  With that said I think I have to realize that the certain issues that we argue about I will have to burry for now and not bother stressing about them, because there is nothing I can really do about it.  Someone at work told me that "If there is a solution to the problem, don't worry about it … If there is no solution to the problem then don't worry about it because there is nothing you can do about it." That is definately the approach I have to take right now, especially with my parents.  Again ill defiantly talk about that in great detail another time.  Then there is the college situation, which of course is non existent, because I dropped out. That's another long story I won't get into now.  So, why start this again, why now.  Well as I said I have been really bothering people with my problems and I feel it's not fair for people to have to listen to them unless they want to.  Another reason why I started this is because this (hopefully) is a new beginning and a fresh start for me to change things that I have never worked on or have never had the guts to deal with.   By me saying this, and posting it, I can go back and read what I have said and keep on track with my plans.  Anyways I am tired and I need to proof read this and get some sleep.  Nite :S

  Monday March 10, 2003 @19:30

Heh..  What a week so far.  Yesterday I lifted some excessively heavy TV's at work.  That was not fun at all.  Plus one of them that we delivered yesterday is broken because HI-VAC did not rebuild the picture tube properly… :P that's the second time for that TV, and we have to suffer because of their mistakes.  I have one thing to say to HI-VAC.  FUCK OFF.  The TV is close to 300 lbs and I don't want to lift it again :*(.  Anyways I have some good news I may have a date tomorrow night.  He seems like a really nice guy.  I met him online and have spoken to him off and on.   We decided to go out and see what happens.  So if all goes well ill be going out tomorrow : anyways I have to go friends are here now.

  Thursday March 13, 2003 @0:51

So, today was my day off.  I needed the break.  I slept in till around 11 and made some breakfast.  That was a big mistake.  I made some macaroni from my mom's kitchen and in around an hour and a half I was hovering over a toilet tossing my cookies.   Remind me not to eat from that kitchen and get the health department to inspect it.  Anyways after that Konst and Danny came over.  We talked for a bit and then I told them how they are starting to change the point zero bus shelter ads and that time is running out for me to get it.   Konst's brother called so he had to go pick up his brother and drive him home.  Danny and I followed.   Then I got a little hungry so I told Danny I wanted a sub.  So on our way to Subway, I was looking for the Point Zero bus shelter ad and I could not find it.  Most had been replaced.  Then after I got my sub I remembered seeing the poster somewhere a while back.  So Danny and I checked out the place and it was there.  I told him I am going to remove it tonight.   LOL.  So my mission was successful and I got the poster.  Thanks to the friends who helped me, I am not going to name you because I don't want you getting in any trouble but thanks again for helping me out. It will be on my ceiling soon and ill post new pictures of my room:.  So now the highlight of my parent's mental stability today was that they have now decided they don't want me having friends over for a while.  They say they need their quiet time, which is stupid because most times they don't even realize my friends are over.  Then when my friends leave and they notice they were here they get all mad.  I can understand if we are disturbing them, but most times that's not the case.  If they don't realize they are over and my friends are quiet, then why do my parents complain.   ARRGH my parents are so stupid.  Soon I will check them into 1001 Queen Street (that's the address of the mental hospital here) so I guess my parents don't want my friends over anymore now.   I wonder what's next.  Anyways I should be going to bed.  Nite nite