December 2001

  Saturday December 1, 2001 @23:52

Friday was an ok day too. Nothing much happened. I just got a little more info on that big essay I have to hand in on Wednesday. I will start that on Sunday. It's going to be hard it's 1500 words and it's on the effects of time on two different essays that I had to read. I will be filling it with a lot of quotes. If I do that, hehe it will hit 1500 words in no time. I was worried about the internet assignment I had to do but I actually finished that today at work and at home. Work was interesting today. It was slow in the morning so that's when I started the internet assignment. I was surprised that I got the internet assignment to work on the first try. It was sort of easy, but getting things to work was the challenge but I did not have any problems at all. I repaired a few units at work today; these new electronic products are killing the repair industry. They are cheep, they break down and the parts are expensive and customers don't want to spend the money on them. Next week is the last week of college before exams and I am so close to getting my tuition refunded for second semester. I really made the wrong decision I think and I should have concentrated on more important things that I needed to have done like move out and my health. I get that test back on Monday and I am nervous as hell. Anyways I am not in a talkative mood so I am going to go.

  Sunday December 2, 2001 @23:39

Today was a day filled with mixed emotions. I felt ok at the beginning. My friend Cathy came over and wanted my sister to go with her to the bus stop so she could convince her parents that she was going to a school football game but she instead was gong to see a movie. So that's what happened this afternoon. I wanted to work on that essay but I could not bring myself to do it. I had a lot of other things on my mind. I am really worried about the test results that my doctor will be giving me tomorrow. I know that if it comes back with a bad result it may fulfill one of the things I always wanted, but that is not fair to my friends. I know I have been a total asshole to my friends lately and I am starting to realize that friends are something that I need and I am taking them for granted. I have figured out that once I realize that I have done something wrong when it is too late. That always happens to me. And whenever I do something wrong or screw up or do something I suffer, but more importantly and worse, my friends suffer. Sometimes I see a look in their eyes that I let them down. And sometimes I just want to say sorry but I know that that won't help much because they always hear that from me. They always hear me complain and whine and cry about the same things. Do I do something about those things? No, I never have and I don't know if I ever will. I know they get sick of it. And only the ones who are stubborn and keep caring and keep listening stay with me. That is not fair of me. They deserve to see me be happy and not complain about things. They deserve to have a break from all this. But I don't know if I can give them that. I am so scared about Christmas. It is usually a happy time for people but it is sad for me. I always remember the times when I was happy and when things were ok for me and it just depresses me. I remember the good Christmases I used to have. I remember the happy times, but I wish I had them again. I am worried I may loose my friend Rubrix. He has been a really caring person towards me and he is someone I really would like to keep as a good friend. I only have 2 really good friends that I can talk to and get advice from. And I really value them, but I know that they are wearing out. I am trying to figure out whether I am always sad because I want attention. Maybe that is true. I probably want attention so I get sad and cry to my friends then they give me the attention. But if that is the case then I am really an asshole. Why put people you care about through so much bullshit. That is not fair at all. Especially when they are friends. I was thinking about what a shitty year this has turned out to be. I have done some stupid things and hurt many people. One of my old friends was right. I just don't want to get better. And it seems like that is happening lately. I may be scared to feel happy and feel like I am not a failure at life. I know it sounds stupid but that may be true. What's even more stupid is that I will continue this and loose good friends and then I will just feel more sorry and the cycle will keep going. I know if Steve reads this he will realize that this is what has been happening and I have put him through all this because I want attention. I am such a baby. I hurt friends to get attention. That's just great isn't it? I hurt the one thing I need most.

  Monday December 3, 2001 @23:49

Another day has gone bye and it was filled with interesting events. I went to my doctor's appointment today and I found out that my blood test was normal. Although my cholesterol is ok my triglycerides are abnormal, which has always been the case with me. I got a prescription to some new pills that will help me control my weight. The drug is called Meridia and it seems like it will help me. I think it's very expensive though I saw a 200 U.S. dollar quote for a one month's supply so my mom's prescription plan better cover this one. I was slightly relieved that the other results did not come back yet. I am worried and part of me does not want to know the real truth. I stayed at college till 5 today to help out Rubrix, Dan and Arthur on some tests that they had to take for this really stupid course that teaches you how to use Microsoft office and send emails. I did not even get started on that essay. I guess ill be pulling an all nighter tomorrow and that will be really fun. I helped Steve out on his internet assignment. He had some problems with his apache server so I fixed them. He says he owes me and he wants to buy me lunch but I don't want that. He is a good friend to me and he cares about me. That's all I want is his friendship and I have that so what more could I possibly want. One day I may need his help in getting better or I may need to talk to him and that's when he can repay me because that's when I will need it the most, and in the past he has always been there to help me. I gave Dan the link to this website tonight and now he knows about me. He has never talked to someone like me. I know it is weird for people to find out. It is a shock to them, I don't know why, because I really act gay and I am always checking guys out lol. But some people must not notice it. I have been thinking about what I wrote yesterday and I hope that these new pills will bring me one step closer to feeling better about myself and ending the depression. I just have to start realizing that it's me that has to make the changes and no one else.

  Wednesday December 5, 2001 @01:24

Well I finally finished the essay today. Well I started at 7:30 in the evening and stopped at 1:00. I am surprised I got the stupid thing over with because I was really procrastinating about it. It's over and done with, although it is the biggest pile of crap I have seen, I hope to get a passing grade with it. Today was an interesting day because the registration for the second semester was happening. It started at 1:00 and Rubrix and Steve and my other 2 friends from college wanted the same section so we all went to Rubrix's place, except for Steve and we all got to register for the same section. :) That means ill be getting a drive every day form Steve as long as I don't piss him off with stupid things that I have done. If I do that he will be driving his car over me. LOL. One thing that got me worried today is Dan. I told him last night about myself and he probably does not understand the risk that someone like me has to take when other find out. Today in class he said something about my walls to my friends and others may have overheard so I am going to have to talk to him and tell him not to mention it unless we are in an area where everyone knows. He also mentioned it in the car while he was driving us to Rubrix's place. He did not know that Rubrix or the other person knew so if they didn't he would have told them. I will talk to him about it and I know it will be ok... hopefully... Anyways it's really late and I have to get up early so I have to sleep. Bye :)

  Wednesday December 5, 2001 @21:46

Depression. It's such a big word and it's something horrible that I seem to battle. I know I bring it all upon myself. I know I cause all my problems and sadness. But here we go again. I don't do anything about it so why am even bothering writing and crying about this. Why do I even bother to write anything in this journal thing anyway... oh yeah I know why, it's because it's supposed to help me out and get problems off my back. But this ends up in an endless loop. I have problems. I try to get better. I fail at that. So then I get back to the original state where I have problems. I have got to be mental for actually causing these problems to my self because who in their right mind would even let little things and problems like mine get to them. Today I was walking with Rubrix and he told me that I thrive off attention and that I need it. I was like well duh. Then he told me something that I did. I had interrupted him while he was talking to someone and I completely took over. I did not notice that I had done that till he pointed that out. I am really self centered and I always have to seek attention. I never realized it but if I did not talk about myself or the subway or cute guys, then... I have nothing to talk about. I am really a boring person and I treat people like shit. I have been doing that for a long time and I have not even noticed it. I have interrupted Rubrix so many times and today in class I had to talk about m stupid answers that I wrote on the test. I just had to get attention. I always have to get attention. Then I started going on about how I am a failure on so many subjects so I would feel sorry about myself. Rubrix is really and at me because I was sulking and complaining about English and how I was going to fail. I found out that because the English teacher had dropped our lowest marks, that I had actually got a 70% in that course on the assignments before the final essay and exam. I can understand why Rubrix is mad at me. I complain too much and I always talk about myself. No wonder why I don't have friends. One good thing that happened today was that I registered a domain name for this site. It's going to be www.gheyboi.com . I thought it would be appropriate for the site. So I finally did that. But why do I even write on this site. I guess it's so I can talk about myself. And brag about the crappiness that this site is. Now I am worried about Christmas because I hate it. It is such a depressing time year for me. I just don't like it. I find that trying to fake to get along with everyone at the dinner table has gotten more and more strenuous over the years and I find that I just get hurt more than anything at Christmas time. LOL listen to me I am whining again. I have to stop that. I am surprised that I have friends because I really have an asshole personality.

  Friday December 7, 2001 @10:01

I didn't write last night because I was busy trying to get the guestbook to work. I think I got all the bugs worked out of it but you never know. It's actually an advanced guestbook and I like the features it has. It has an anti spamming feature so spam servers cannot get people who sign the book's email address. Yesterday was an interesting day. We had out last hardware lab, yippee!! I actually hated the lab monitor in that room at the beginning but now I can admit that she was not that bad. I will actually miss that class. One funny thing that happened was that as I was sitting in Harvey's, a fast food restaurant, I was doing an assignment and I was stuck on one question. I noticed that the professor for that class was walking towards the Harvey's so once she got near it I popped out and asked her the question. She was completely surprised. Other than that yesterday was a pretty boring day except for the fact that I was supposed to meet up with someone from the net, but he had to cancel because of something he had to do for his parents. LOL you know what is funny. I am actually writing this entry on the subway because I had no time this morning to write it except for now. This laptop has been useless at times but sometimes I can't live without it. The reason why I am on the subway this late in the morning is because I am not going to college today. All the classes I am supposed to have already finished because exams start next week. : P. I called work yesterday because my friend Danny needed a part to fix his satellite receiver. Then I started talking to my boss and I told him that I have the day off today and he said "Come in I need someone to work." So that's a good thing because I need money. OH SHIT now the intercom on the train said there is a delay at a station with a passenger assistance alarm. I hope that I am not affected by it. I hope to work on the site a lot this Christmas. I have started working on the main page but I don't really know what to put on it. I want to put a brief description of the site, but I really don't know what to write about. I will probably figure something out. Anyways my stop is coming up soon and I have to shut this thing down. Bye: P.

  Saturday December 8, 2001 @11:50

Hmmm. I am at work right now and I have nothing to really do but watch TV and sit here, so I decided to write something about yesterday. Work was not fun yesterday because I actually worked. LOL I know its called work but I am used to the slow Saturdays. I had to help deliver a TV yesterday. That is always fun especially when I have to help carry it :P. I was really tired when I got home and I wanted to sleep but Rubrix wanted me to go downtown with him because he had nothing to do. Damn if he wasn't so cute and so nice to me and caring I would have not gone but I am actually happy that I did go. The reason why I was happy that I went was that the glad day bookstore was open so I picked up the last 2 issues of XY magazine that I missed. I also found out that they carry the XY survival guide so, hehe I picked up 3 copies of it 1 for me and the other 2 are Christmas gifts for friends. After that we went to taco bell and sat there fort a bit and had dinner. Some guy at taco bell approached me and asked me if I wanted to buy a new laptop. LOL I love this city. Too bad I did not have the money or else I would have told him that I was interested in buying it. After that we stopped off at shoppers drug mart because Rubrix wanted some fruit by the foot fruit rollups. He must be addicted to them because he bought 2 boxes. Then we went to Starbucks. I got a white hot chocolate and read a bit of the XY survival guide while Rubrix demolished his fruit by the foot. After that we walked around a bit and Rubrix saw this kid who must have been 13 and he was living on the street. It really shocked him because he has never seen that. Because I have lived in the general area of Toronto I am used to this. It's interesting how I have been de sensitized to many things. After that we went to at an intersection and talked for a bit. Then we both headed home. When I am in a bad mood Rubrix can just start talking and soon I get into a good mood. He is just like that and I told him to never loose that because that is what makes him such a nice person. Steve is the same, when I am in a bad mood and if I talk to him I usually start getting into a good one. Even my other friends tend to bring me in good moods when I am around them. I really have good friends and I hope they know that. Anyways I have to go before the boss gets here LOL.

  Monday December 10, 2001 @00:11

Well its Sunday night or actually Monday morning. I have my hardware exam tomorrow and Steve is going to pick me up at the station tomorrow so I am study with him and his friends. I have been asking Steve all sorts of hard ware questions tonight about the hardware exam. I have really met some cool people on this internet. I was talking to this one guy on msn who is really cool. I like him and he is cute, hehe, but he does not live close to me at all :(. That's my luck. Joee messaged me and asked me if I liked Rubrix. LOL I found that funny because I think its obvious that I do, but there is nothing much I can do about that situation because it wont work at all LOL. Hehe by the way HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEE :) So anyways at work Saturday we had this retarded customer who was in his 30's and physically fit but he had me carry his TV by myself. It's not fun carrying a 27" TV up stairs and half a block by yourself. Some people are assholes. Other than that work was ok. I got a lot of stuff done. In the afternoon things picked up and that was good. If things are like that next week ill be able to make some money and work a bit. I have had some serious sad times today. I am getting worried about Christmas and I am worrying about my school. How will going to college help me out at all? I don't see why it will, really, because I will probably end up doing something completely different. We will see what happens. Ha who knows I may not be around to see myself graduate haha? I LOVE LIFE. How much happier can I be. Every night before I sleep I cry and hug my pillows. How pathetic. Tonight was the homohop which is a rave dance thing and someone else and I were supposed to go but I didn't go and neither did him because I have the hardware exam tomorrow and he wanted someone to come with him. I feel bad, but I know myself ill probably get tweaked on something and drink and I won't be waking up for the exam, so I could not go. Maybe next time I will. What an interesting day this has been. My parents have fucked up a lot of my friendships. They do not understand that friends are what keep me alive, and by restricting them from me or coming over it hurts me. It hurts me more than they can see. When I isolate myself from friends things happen to me. Bad things very bad things like what I did in March of 2001. Most of my friends know what happened then. It's hard for me to cope with things when shit happens.

  Monday December 10, 2001 @23:56

Today was another really bad day. It started off ok but in the evening it went completely down hill. My sister told me that her computer crashed and that when she turns it on she is missing a file. The file she is missing is essential for windows XP to start so it the computer needed the CD to re install the file. The big problem is that I can't find my windows XP CD and Danny is the only other person with a copy. My mom came home and was furious because she did not want Danny to come over because she banned him from the house. She has done that to some of my friends. She gave in to let Danny come over, but I said I will only let him bring the CD if I am allowed to have him over when things aren't needed. My mom said no and she was furious. She and I argued over allowing Danny to come over for with me for 10 minutes when I gave up and said that my sister could do her assignment on one of my computers in my room. But I said there is no way that her computer will get fixed unless Danny is allowed over more often. My mom said that he won't be allowed over and she wanted to know how much windows XP professional was from future shop. When I told her the price she said well my sister will have to live without a computer because Danny won't be allowed over. I was really depressed because I need my friends. She is taking them away from me and that makes me really sad and depressed and when I get depressed I do things to myself. One day my mom will realize what she does to me are mistakes and that I am worth being treated better. One day. She will learn. Soon. :(

  Tuesday December 11, 2001 @23:59

Life. You go through it to make money to pay the bills and then you die. What a reward for going through all that bullshit. You die. I always found it interesting why people have a drive to live. I really don't and there is only one main reason why I live. It is because my friends will be so hurt if I died that I don't want to cause them that pain. That's why I live every day. I don't want to let them down. I know I should live for myself but if I did that. I would not be doing much living. Today was a rough day for me. I was happy today in the afternoon. I was a little sad but Steve cheered me up. It's something about his personality that just seems to put me in a good mood it rubs off on me. I wish I had a positive outlook on life. I know a lot of my friends have shit happening in their lives, even worse shit than me, but they seem to cope better. I don't know if I am wearing out or not or whether I am just weak to begin with, but I seem to let the smallest things bother me. If my mom yells at me, I get sad and do something stupid. If I am lonely and sad I do something stupid. I always seem to do stupid. It seems to be a part of me. I know my friends hate it, but it's me that does it to myself. It is my entire fault. It will always be and that will never change. Anyways today we had our internet exam. It was a difficult exam, but I have a good feeling that I passed. The hardware exam on Monday was really easy. I defiantly passed that one. Tomorrow is the operating systems exam. I should be able to do well on it I just have to review my notes. Joee showed up at college today because he thought the APC exam was today. Poor guy. He showed up for nothing. He was not too happy about it and he did not want to show up on Thursday when the exam is supposed to be. I know he is fed up with college, but I still think he should show up for the exam because I know if he gets a decent mark the professor will pass him for sure. He can use the APC credit towards his general education credits at the other campus where he is going to. I wish him luck at the other campus because I know if he really puts his mind to it he can get through college. He also gave me his locker because he is not going to my campus anymore. Sometimes Joee can be really mean but most times he is nice. I was sort of mean to Rubrix today. I did not go with him to lunch. I know he wanted me to but I was more concerned about getting a drive home. I can really be an asshole sometimes. I should start reviewing for this exam now. Bye :/

  Wednesday December 19, 2001 @15:34

I know it has been a very long time since my last entry, but I have been so busy lately that I have not had the time. Right now I am at a friend's house and have nothing to do so I thought I would write something. This last week has been interesting. I finished all my exams and I think I passed them all, well I hope I did. Rubrix went back home for the holidays so I actually have been missing him a lot. Its weird how u never realize how much you miss a person until they are gone. I know the second last day before he went back, which was Thursday, I had made plans with him to go downtown. But I fell asleep and he could not get a hold of me over ICQ. I woke up later that evening and I know he was disappointed. He asked me if I wanted to still go downtown, but I said that it was not the greatest thing to do because I would only be able to spend 45 minutes with him. He said that it was ok and that he would find something else to do but I know he was disappointed and I felt bad. I then messaged him and said ill go. He responded with "you can go but I won't be there." So I felt really bad. I knew I had let him down. What makes it worse was on Friday after work, the transit system was so slow because of all the snow that had fallen so suddenly that I arrived home late and missed him. He had already gone back home at that time and I could not wish him a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. I wonder if he will read this from home. If he does, hehe, he will know I wished him the merry Christmas. I know he had spent some time with his friend from back home because I spoke to his friend over ICQ last night. I just wish I could sort of talk to him and apologies for being such an asshole. So I have not been home much because I can't stand the place. It has been driving me crazy. I have spent some time at my friend, John's house. John is a cool person. He and I used to work together at my former place of employment. I have been helping him fix some UPS's and I helped fix a TV that he got for free from a friend. The TV repair was hilarious because the guy who owned it is one of those know it all types and he had the right idea of what to repair in the set, but the parts he put in were so old, one of the capacitors he used was dated from 1964. Capacitors have a fluid inside them which eventually dries up. They are only good for 10 years. Another problem with the set was that only 5 capacitors really had to be changed but he changed over 30 so we had to replace every capacitor that he had changed which takes a while. He had also reversed a connector in the set too. But the set works perfectly and the guy is mad that we fixed it because he thought if he could not fix it, then no one could. He even offered to buy it back, but that's his loss. HAHA. He was really mad when he saw it running. Anyways, I have been relatively ok, especially when I have been spending limited time at home. Yesterday when I was on my way home from work I saw a new point zero advertisement with the same guy in it. He does not look as cute as the first one, but I want it, so one night I am going to have to pay a visit to a bus shelter which my screwdriver and borrow the ad. I wonder where I will put this one. LOL I am sure I will find room somewhere. When I get it ill be sure to take pictures of my room so you can see the new ad. My mom and I are still fighting because Danny is not allowed to come over. I am sure that one day that conflict will be resolved. I hope I can go somewhere Christmas Eve and day because I really don't want to be home those 2 days. I hate spending time with family because they seem to constantly attack me when I am forced to be in a situation. Like a relative asked me if I had a girlfriend yet and my mom was like "Ross why don't you have a girlfriend yet" right after the relative asked. She tries to embarrass me and make me feel bad about who I am. She does not understand that I already feel bad enough about it and she does not have to rub it in. Well I don't know if I have anything else to talk about. If I think of something ill write later on this evening. I feel sort of embarrassed that I haven't written for a while. Ill try to never have that happen again. :)

  Friday December 21, 2001 @01:36

OMG I met this really cool person on ICQ last week and I started talking to him again today. I really like him a lot. He is so nice and kind and caring. We talked for a long time today on ICQ and we agreed that we should meet up with each other in the future. I gave him my phone number and he is going to call me this weekend. He saw the website and said that he liked my pictures. That is a first. Most guys see my pictures and never talk to me again. So far I really like him; I have got to meet up with him. Anyways that was the real highlight about yesterday. When I woke up I did not feel well so I had to cancel my trip that I was going to take with John to a scrapper to get computer stuff to put on eBay. He was a little disappointed, but not overly mad so that was good. Towards the evening I started to clean my room. It was a complete mess and it needed it. I completely dismantled my whole computer setup on my desk because it had got so dusty and I needed to clean it up. That took me around 3 hours so the site was down for a while. My mom and I sort of got along for once today. We actually did not fight and I helped her out. We went to home depot to pick up some lights because they were burnt out in the house so I helped her with that. She actually talked to me a bit and we sort of joked around. She still does not trust me but that's just her. She said something to me in the car that proved that. She finally admitted to the fact that there is money in the bank in my name and it is supposed to be used on me. My grandfather left it for me, so I think I will use it to pay for my college. I could also move out with that amount of money. It is tempting to do but thinks have quieted down here, so I am not in a rush. I haven't talked to Steve much. I think he may be a little worried about me, but I have been doing ok. I just want him to know that because I know he checks out the site once in a while. I have to go to work today but I can't really sleep. I am really excited that I met that person on the net. Finally my bad luck streak has lifted just this once. :)

  Monday December 24, 2001 @08:25

Well I know I haven't written for a while again but I have been so busy. It's Christmas Eve and I am on my way to work already. One of the employees at the place I work at did not want to work today, and I need the money, so I thought I would be doing nothing better today than sit around so I might as well go in to work. I got a Christmas present for my sister finally. I am giving her the point zero ad that I removed from the bus shelter at work because I got another one last night. She already saw it and she wanted it so I thought that it would be a good gift for her. I tried to get another one of those ads Saturday night, but I was interrupted by a security company's car that stopped in front of me and looked at me. My friends and I who were at the bus shelter just walked away normally. I had troubles opening the holder for the ad because it used a special security screw and I did not have the bit on me. But last night I had the bit and some help and now I have another one. Danny wants me to get more so we can sell them on eBay, but I don't feel like taking anymore. That's getting greedy. My mom has been in a really good mood lately and that has surprised me. You should have seen the Christmas tree that my parents bought. Every year they get a live tree and they get the cheapest, most defective tree they can find. They really outdid themselves this year with the 20 dollar special they bought. The tree is missing branches in the middle and it's crooked. My mom said that ornaments can fill the middle, but I doubt it. The top of the tree has an extra growth sticking out of it so it looks like it those antennas you use for your TV so you can get channels. My parents are inviting a bunch of people over and I hope its not going to be an attack Ross type of dinner. I hate those. I have been in a good mood lately since I have been talking to that person I met on the net. He is so kind and caring and I really like him a lot. I never thought that the internet would be useful to find someone, but it may prove to me that it is. Danny and one of my other friends were over yesterday evening. I enjoyed their company and they helped me with a few computer problems I was experiencing. I was showing them something on my server and all three of us were looking at the screen, and then suddenly it shut off. I could not believe that the monitor died right in front of me. I opened it right away and I found out that it blew the same part it did last time it died. I am using another monitor right now on the server and I think I may dispose of the other one. 14" monitors aren't hard to come across and they are cheep if you know where to get them. I noticed that my sister found out about my site and she signed the guest book. I guess one of her friends told her about it. I haven't talked to her much lately so I haven't told her about the site. Well my subway stop is coming up soon and I have to shut this computer down. If I don't write tonight everyone have a merry Christmas. Bye :)

  Monday December 31, 2001 @11:20

Well it's the last day of 2001. I would have never thought I would be here to see this day, especially after the way this year went. It was a rough year for me and my friends. I put them through a lot of crap, but I survived and I guess that's what they wanted. I was talking to Steve a couple of days ago and I was blabbing on about how I am going to make this year better and how I will change and all that crap. He said basically said to me that he has heard this plan before from me and that it's a good plan but I have to follow through with it. I say a lot of things when I make good plans, but most times I never follow through with them. It's a new year and it can start off to a good start. At work the asshole manager at the sales department was fired for getting into an argument and putting his hands on an employee. I am happy he is gone. He was real asshole. He always offered his opinion even when not asked and he also had a really bad attitude. I can't stand people like that at all. Well he is gone now and it's a good for both departments because he was interfering and causing so much headaches. I still have been talking to that guy that I met on the net. He is really nice but he is hardly online and I have a feeling that he probably won't like me when he sees who I really am. He says I am a nice person, but he has to say that after he meets me in person. Once that is done then ill know for sure if he is interested in me or not. Tonight I am going to one of those New Years Eve parties that my friend has. This time though it will be a small party with like 30 people that are invited and not like the crazy big parties he usually has. His mom just painted the house, so she does not want it ruined. I don't blame her at all. My cousins came over this weekend with my uncle and aunt. I actually enjoyed them coming over. We played this game and talked a bit. The only problem and thing I was worried about was them seeing my room. I did not want them to know about me because I haven't seen them for like 5 years and I think that seeing them, and then them finding out, would not be a great thing. I really have been busy the last couple of days. I have been re installing windows and setting up permissions on accounts with my friend Danny. The reason why I am doing that is because I can't stand it when my sister complains that her computer is slow. Most of the time her complaints are correct, it's just that she has installed so much junk software into her computer it just bogs it down. Eventually the computer corrupts windows and it needs a re- install. This time that won't happen because I will be monitoring the software installs on her computer. Anyways I got to go again. I am writing this on the subway and my stop is almost here. Bye and I hope that everyone has a Happy New Year :) !!!